When we're in pain, we want God to fix it, not sit with us in it. In this talk on John 11, Mike Harris looks at why Jesus deliberately waited two days before raising Lazarus, then wept at the graveside. His anger was at death itself, which was never God's intention, and our grief reflects God's own heart. Drawing on losing his own dad, Mike explores why we're so uncomfortable with sadness and what grieving people actually need. The community unpacks how to show up well. The message is simple — you don't have to fix grief, and if you're grieving, you're not a problem to be fixed.

Ade Birkby explores what success is actually for, using the story of Zacchaeus in Luke 19 as his guide. Zacchaeus was the most powerful, wealthy man in Jericho — and the most isolated. Jesus called him by name, went to his house, and something shifted. The community unpacks why honest, hard-earned success is not unbiblical, but why its purpose is generosity and community, not accumulation. With honest conversation about discipline, desire, and the cost of real giving, this is a talk for anyone who's wondered why having more hasn't made them feel like enough.

Dave Connolly unpacks Matthew 11:28 — Jesus's invitation to all who are weary and burdened. In a culture that prizes hustle and self-improvement, Dave names the cost: Christians running on empty, trying to serve God on fumes. The way out isn't more effort but movement toward Jesus. He walks through what it means to take Jesus's yoke — to learn from him, to be discipled by the older ox who knows the way, to align our lives with grace rather than performance. We can't earn rest. It's a gift. The only thing required is to come.

There's a version of busy that everyone can see. The packed calendar, the unanswered messages, the inbox you've stopped pretending you'll catch up on. And then there's the other kind. The quieter, more respectable busy. The one you reach for when there's something you don't want to face — a difficult conversation, a prompt you can't quite explain to anyone else, a moment where you sense you should stop and you really, really don't want to. This week at Crowd, Dan Orange asked if we have heard the "are you a Mary or a Martha?" framing before? Be more Mary.

Will Sopwith took us into Mark 4 this week — the moment Jesus calmed the storm on the lake. We looked at the version of faith we've quietly been sold (a magic charm, an insurance policy, priority boarding to heaven) and the version Jesus actually offered, which is harder and better. Faith isn't a way to dodge storms. It's the discovery that Jesus is in the storm with us — fully God, fully caring, and unwilling to abandon us to our fears. Stories from Glencoe, Dunkirk, and a foggy road one November morning made it real.

When you've prayed for years and nothing's changed, Mark 5 offers a quiet kind of company. Mark Buchannan walks us through the woman who reached for the corner of Jesus' cloak after twelve years of suffering — and what it means that hundreds were bumping into Jesus that day, but only one had an encounter. With honest reflections from Dave (still ill, still trusting) and Mark (whose mum lived and died believing God heals), this is hope without hype for anyone still waiting.

Mike Harris unpacks the moment Jesus reaches out and touches a man with leprosy in Mark 1 — a man who shouldn't have been near anyone, let alone a teacher with crowds following him. Mike traces three interlocking outsider stories: the leper who came at the wrong time, in the wrong place, with nothing to bring; the kids no one picked for football (Mike admits he was the cruel captain); and the woman on his street he instinctively crossed the road to avoid. The talk lands on the leper's question — "if you are willing" — and Jesus's two-word answer.

Dave Connolly unpacks the story of the woman at the well in John 4 — a woman who came to draw water at noon, in the hottest part of the day, to avoid the people she was ashamed to face. This talk explores what happens when Jesus goes out of his way to meet someone who is hiding, and what it means to be fully known and fully welcomed at the same time. Dave shares honestly about the areas we leave untouched, the way shame pushes us into isolation, and why being seen by Jesus can be the start of real freedom.

Most of us are walking around with a version of Jesus we've never really questioned. Gentle. Meek. Mild. Safely on a postage stamp. Matt Edmundson opens our new Jesus the Revolutionary series by asking what if the Jesus we think we know isn't the one who actually showed up? In Luke 4, Jesus walks into His hometown, announces freedom for everyone including His enemies, and nearly gets thrown off a cliff. The real Jesus is fiercely loving — too kind to leave us where we are, too disruptive to be a cosmic therapist. This is the start of a yearlong look at the Jesus we've been missing.